Monday, January 28, 2013
everytime i saw you, i ran out of words to say.
and it's the very first time your picture appear in my lovely bloggie :D
cause, we DO keep a low profile :P
well, it has been a year + now, and it's time for me to show you in public!
you are a very untrustworthy guy -.-
i said i will treat you for lunch and gave you my wallet then i went to the toilet
and now, i realise non of my money is gone
you evil !
i know it is hard for us to see each other much
but you'll definitely be in my heart.
cause i think of you everyday
(i feel so open right now -.-)
i really cherish the times we meet each other.
although we only meet like once a month? or much longer than that :/
and we'll keep this on until we're able to see each other every single day :D
right? ;)
you're really cranky and sarcastic at times.
but i still have to bare with you right?
and you also bare with my ego-ness too XD
oh my, we're perfect for each other!
hahahaha
thanks for helping me to do my homework :P
now i know the importance of having a boyfriend who knows how to take videos
it's the first time i see you in action!
now i know why i admire you so much in the first place :x
you're definitely special to me
so let's hold hands LOL.
at some point, we do look alike XD
PS: i love my rebonded hair :D
Saturday, January 26, 2013
we finally met after a month :D
too bad khoi wei couldn't come :(
she was stuck in nilai D:
i really miss you guys :'(
although it was a short gathering, but i felt really happy
shu ping was never the most punctual person -.-
we basically just ate and take pictures
but, it made my day :)
oh, i remember me and jin yuen shouted when we met at the lrt on tuesday
hahaha and i can feel that everyone is looking at us LOL.
it was a beautiful coincidence :') HAHAHA
joking.
well, there are many more. and these was all i manage to save in my desktop
because the album in cheen's profile kept disappearing :(
and i couldn't see it TTTTTT
what happen to you, facebook?
i love this photo a lot, i look so pretty! *coughs* i mean, we look pretty :D
ahhahahaha
i kept thinking whether should i put this as profile picture or not
cause i love my current profile picture too much to change it -.-
ta-da! group pichaaa!
a really normal, simple and nice one :D
cause we were done playing with the apps.
argh, i seriously miss you guys :((
i actually shed tears at night, thinking that i'm going to college again the next day without you all
it was like yesterday i laughed my heart out, and then i go back to keeping quiet again
it is really saddening
i know i'm a crybaby, but i can't help it.
i'm used to seeing you guys sitting at our usual place early in the morning
and chit chat until the assembly starts
and would even keep on talking until the assembly ends
we would complain about how late we slept last night
or how much homework teacher gave us
and complain about the hungriness which was unbearable back then D:
i miss you guys so much :'(
I hope the sleepover plan will be on ><
cause i would spent the whole night talking, haha
no frowns.
i'll try to hang on
;)
*hearts*
Friday, January 18, 2013
Week 3 of my college life has just ended :D
well, everything turn out okay
and i'm starting to blend in ^^
i've been speaking and listening to a lot of english
and i'm quite afraid that my chinese will suck soon :P
i am getting to know people around my class.
they are quite fun actually :)
unfortunately i am not that close to them :/
well, time is all i need
i love my class.
because they are super good in maths and it is very competitive :D
but it kinda stressed me up sometimes
since i'm a really slow learner, i tend to understand things a little bit slower than they do
like they are already on question 9, and i'm still stuck at question 5
that's how smart and fast they are.
i never consider myself as smart before
because the result i get is all because of hard work.
so i kinda admire people with these kind of talent :/
getting to learn quick
and of course, really smart.
i feel so dumb around them -.-
i actually raised my hand to ask the teacher for every question i do
which now i realise, all the patience my ex-tuition teachers gave me TT
cause i do ask alot of silly question that nobody would ever ask .
i didn't notice it when i was in sbs, cause i seldom ask questions like these in school
and i tend to ask these questions in tuition ><
especially mr tham, my add maths tuition teacher
i kept asking him, why this why that?
why can't it be like this?
or why we need to do this?
what's the point of getting this? and then get that?
and my accounts tuition teacher too
i always ask him all the WHYS
i feel sorry for my lecturer because they get students like me -.-
i guess i'll have to work even harder than usual -.-
if not they will be annoyed to death.
like seriously.
i'm an annoying girl :'(
and group leaders for malaysian studies and moral studies' proposal?
you got to be kidding me -.-
i hope i won't get mad ==
oh ya, and NAPS.
in secondary school, i can't live without taking a nap
i would feel so sleepy i can fall asleep in tuition
and i always wandered how am i gonna survive when i go to work?
cause working doesn't let you have a nap in the afternoon XDDD
and now.. i can actually stay up till 12 something without taking a nap
how fascinating is that?
well, it's just that i don't have a choice, you see.
from monday to thursday, i finish school at 5.30
and around damansara, everybody goes back home from work
and it causes a huge traffic congestion there.
so, if my dad isn't free to fetch me home, i'll reach home at 7 (MINIMUM)
like monday, i'm stuck in front of my college for one and a half hour
and it's just a really short road.
less than 100m =.=
and i reached home about 8 ==
and i was hungry and exhausted.
i just love today
because it is friday :D
i can go back at 12 *yay*
but i still reach home around 2 --
i have no idea why there's a traffic jam around 12.
but STILL, i reach home at 2!
which is a good thing :D
i'm a happy girl!!!
and i think i typed too much and i should stop here
ahhaa, i really have alot to say
i've been wanting to blog since monday you see :D
have a good weekend ^^
Friday, January 11, 2013
This isn't the kind of life that i want.
i'm just too shy in front of strangers, i can't seem to blend in
i'm not really that out going.
apparently, lots of new friends i made was boys.
frankly, no girls would want a stranger, a newbie in their own little circle
that's the conclusion i made :/
but thanks to lii xiang, my primary school friend
she kinda take care of me alot
since there are a lot of friends from her secondary school who's in help
she introduced me to everyone of them
and even invited me to join them for lunch as i am obviously alone ALL THE TIME
well, how lucky would i be if i were in the same group as hers :(
but her friends are all in science.
and yeah, i'm here all alone in arts.
however, i don't regret studying a levels in help
i really don't
but it's kinda lonely being alone all the time.
one of the guys i met there, rui yong
told me that he thinks i'm very shy and anti-social.
i mean, come on, how can i be sociable around all these strangers out here
and to top it all off, they have their own group of friends since secondary school already.
lii xiang was actually surprised when she found out that i'm alone
cause she thinks i have a huge group of friends.
ya, i do.
but i kinda forgot how i made friends with all of them
and now,
it seems that i'm not good at making friends at all.
i'm shy and timid and afraid to talk
WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?
that 'me' i used to know isn't like this.
this is worse than i expect it would be :/
academic wise,
i took further maths after thinking about it thoroughly
and i changed into another group
which made blending in a whole lot harder.
and that group that i'm in
are all math freaks.
they finished 6 simultaneous equation in 20 minutes
without using a calculator
meanwhile i'm still at question 4
(this is what happen to people who rely too much on calculator in secondary school)
and this goes on till the next set of question and the next set ==
i was so stressed up ==
that i decided to work hard on my maths and further maths during the weekends
and since my syllabus are all in english
i need time to get use to all of it since i'm used to bm -.-
is like i'm starting all over.
it's going to be a tough college life :/
my dad might want me to stop a levels if i get scholarship for foundation or something :/
well, that all depends on my spm results
(which is not going to be pretty)
i do tell myself that if i get used to being alone
i won't feel that lonely anymore :)
but i'm glad to have primary school friends who care about me alot
although we haven't contact or see each other for 5 years
thank you *hearts*
Tuesday, January 8, 2013
超。累。的。
每次回家都要用一个小时多 ==
该死的巴士，该死的命运。
今天最惨 =====
用了一个小时45分钟才回到家 ==
超级接受不到。
我宝贵的时间。。。
终于体会到妈妈的生活。
从早做工到晚然后回来还要煮饭
真的，超伟大的。
大家要多多疼爱你的妈妈 ><
爸爸也很强 ==
早上爬起来做工做到晚。。。 很晚很晚。。
出外公干后，又做工。
现在，我真的要封他们为偶像。
因为，我现在就来要死了 -.-
我真的已经很幸福了。。
妈妈出外公干，其实我应该煮饭的。
但是因为太累的缘故还是偷懒了 ><
让工人煮。。 哈哈。
不过明天5点半放学还要去买菜 TT
因为菜吃完了。。
TTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
长大了，真的要负担起好多好多责任。
还是一句，请多多体谅，多多爱惜你们的父母
因为他们脾气暴躁是有苦衷的。
因为他们真的很累很累很累。
现在在决定要不要drop law, 然后拿further maths ><
其实答案已经很明显了。
但是未免还是会怕的。。
我觉得我打的东西好像一团糟。。
因为脑里真的超乱的 ><
*合得来的朋友很难找*
好吧，我应该做功课了 :)
Thursday, January 3, 2013
今天和昨天都是orientation, 明天正式开课。
但是，交友真的很难。
没有想到每个人都有自己的朋友，自己的圈子了
真的。。 很难参。。
几乎，只有我是一个人的。
是有看到小学朋友，丽翔，川杰和宏捷。
但是，不是跟他们很熟。
他们也有自己的朋友。
在这里觉得自己有点像外人
存在一个，不属于自己的地方。
那边的生活费又高。
没有像以前所谓的食堂。
要自己到附近的complex去吃。。。
真的觉得好贵 ==
今天还为了不要花钱，忍到回家3点多才吃 :/
然后每天还得搭一个小时的车才到学校。。
回来的时间更长 == 要一个小时多。
昨天真的自己回家，自己吃饭。
不是我不能。
只是非常不习惯，忍不住就打给燕婷堡电话粥 ><
是不是长大了就得面对这些东西？
只是，我真的很想交到朋友。
真的很想。
现在几乎认识的都是男的。
妈妈说女的不会那么容易交到 ;(
我不敢乱乱参进其他人的圈子里面
不过爸爸却说okay.
真的。不。习。惯。
这就是孤独的滋味吧？
不过幸好回家的时候可以和川杰回。
至少，好过一个人==
希望明天进班的时候能认识到人 :(
真希望身边有朋友
可以陪我吃饭，问功课，或跟我说再见
一个人，在一个陌生的地方，面对着许多陌生人。
真的不好受。
:(
想念以前的生活。
