Sunday, January 29, 2012
♥ pandiee
Monday, January 23, 2012
就觉得，蛮适合我。
因为我真的受够了。。
我觉得如果没有必要的话，我都不会跟你说话
为什么，你让我失望过后。
你给于大家承诺，大家都原谅你
其实我没有，但后来，我选择再次相信你
我以为你觉悟
我以为你会改
但你没有。
现在我都觉得自己很愚蠢，为什么要相信你？
为什么不对你还有些保留？
后悔了。
我觉得有些事总是亲力亲为好
只是不明白为什么那么多人还能信任你
我，不能。
对不起，我不会再做好人
对你，我不是好人
生气的原因？
你可以自己去思考吗？
你觉得你尽了你的责任吗？
还是你的外表看起来尽责罢了？
亲爱的第三组~
突然在初一想到你们，你们几个都是我最亲的吧？
敏芬<3，每次都是有你在身边，听我的哭声 ==
hahaha, 希望你不介意 :(
今年可能很少机会看到你。。
我都不知道挨不挨得过，你也懂为什么。。
:(
然后大家也忙吧？
绍良，原本讲公事就被我扯去私事 ==
但那个也算是半公半私吧？ ><
没有啦，只是觉得很久没有跟你讲话，突然说那么多
觉得很开心罢了:)
润款。。。啊~
跟你在一起最癫的。。
凯蓉~ 真的好久没有跟你说话了 ><
但你永远在心中~ :)
Saturday, January 21, 2012
seriously too lazy to do anything :/
and i'm tired, although it's only 10.14 now ==
gonna sleep later :D
going back to uncle's place tomorrow
like every other new year eve :)
suddenly got the new year mood XDD
well, gonna get my studying mood back
if not i'm gonna DIEEE
:3
i miss pandiee :((
terriblyy
cried today :(
thanks for hearing min fenn :((
really don't feel like talking a word about it
although i still need to tell :/
ARGH....
dont even want to talk
nobody will understand this feeling
LALALA~ <3
tomorrow going to wear new clothes ><
it has been in my cupboard since november :(((
cause i didnt go new year shopping this year HAHA
no time :/
so i just keep the clothes since holiday till now ^^
happy happy happy
tomorrow going to be stucked with a bunch of boys ==
cause most of my cousins are boys ==
only 2 other girls..
but wire not the same :/
ahh well, maybe going to mind my own business :3
i'm going to hit the hay now XD
tired :((
good night people <3
Thursday, January 19, 2012
Saturday, January 14, 2012
病好了 :)
其实昨天已经好了。。哈哈
明天区会议咯 <3
想念区会议那种感觉
虽然已经不是我们25在开了。。
不是姝俐学姐和语涵学姐带了
还换作自己带蕉赖区了:(
只能说。。区会议真的要珍惜
错过了就没有了。。
蛮怀念以前在kfc开会
呈现计划书
然后自己呈现的时候自high
那。。就是我们蕉赖热情区啦 XD
argh..原本讲学校不要拿任何一个职位的
无端端pop出一个renjer puteri naib pengerusi ==
我真的很欠打 ==
算啦。。反正一个罢了
还可以merit哩 XD
*偷笑*
累。。终于把缺席两天的功课赶完了
现在有点想睡的感觉 ==
okayyyy......继续攻书去了 :)
byeeee <3
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
i was reading and reading, suddenly my head was dizzy
then when i lie down i feel like vomitting
oh well, i thought i will be better when i wake up the next day
who knows, i got a fever when i woke up at 2 something in the morning ==
gosh, tried to sleep but having a fever is really suffering
so i crept down the stairs and open the doors quietly
since i don't want to wake anyone up
ate 2 panadols, but still can't seem to sleep
rang up a panda, and luckily he was there with me over the phone
until i felt like sleeping <3
the next morning i wake up
i decided to go to school
who knows, i got even sicker when i stepped in
can't bear with the illness, called my mum
she went to fetch me
but she started scolding me..
accusing that i don't want to go to school and pretend to be sick
so i wanted to go home
seriously, it's not like that, she has no idea how much i will miss if i skipped school
then she said that i sleep late because i on facebook everyday, and say i'm a form 5 please concentrate on my studies..
wth? i DID study, i got sick because i focused too much on my book
and you say that i on facebook everyday?
i suddenly feel that my hardwork means nothing to her
because all she cares about is her own opinions
and just say it out without caring for other people's feelings
i started to cry
i hate it, i hate it when i work really hard, and i got accuse for being lazy
then i started explaining that i stayed up late is because i was studying
then she said, if you dont have time to study then don't always go out for that useless thing la
can't helped it, i cried even more
xue ji is not a useless and worthless THING
it's part of my life
and you don't even care how important it means to me
you will never know what i care about
why do you want to judge me when the first intervensi isn't over yet?
i seriously felt like fighting back but i was too sick
she dont know, the reason i studied that hard
is because i want to have more chance to go back and see my xue di mei
i really care about them
i have my responsibility to guide them
for once, i studied not for myself
i seriously never worked this hard in my life before
last year, i would on my computer all day long
and just do a little bit of homework
now i even control myself not to touch my computer
just so that i can go back to see them
you and your own selfish opinions.
i seriously have nothing to say
to myself:
i'm sorry for being weak and cried.
i just did cry when i'm typing this.
i'm sorry
Saturday, January 7, 2012
and i'm sitting behind ==
ahh, nevermind..
luckily amanda asked me to move my table next to kah mun's
so i don't have to sit beside derrick and hear his mumbling ==
and i'm sitting under the fan XDD
YEEPS, it's so nicee... cause the weather is kinda hot these days
Lalala, this year, almost all of my teachers are good
like we get puan suhana for Bm, puan mastina for maths, puan hafiza for add maths
and of course, encik nik for accounts and puan sharifah for economy :D
i'm happy with my class..
and my self control, ahahah, has been real good.
i didn't on the computer for 2 days!
ahhahaha, good start eh?
gonna get hardworking, if not my parents are gonna ban me from going xue ji activities :(
just argued few days ago..
ah well... i'm gonna do my best :)
nobody can stop me
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
doing all those last minute work
-all my prefect's annual accounts and stuff stuff :3 -
ahh~ it will be done tonight, oh yes it will ^^
long skirt + long sleeve + blazer + tie
ARGH == super don't like..
ooh~ i'm hungry :3
I'm on october now! (i mean the accounts thing)
LOL, 跳tone到很厉害 XD
okay, ermm.. hopefully it will be done before laziness strikes me :)
ohoh, did i mention?
i took a nap for like 1 hour 30 minutes plus today ^^
i can't seem to wake up ==
when the clock strikes 6, i force myself to wake up
because there's work to be done. YAY!
I am, really really hungry right now..
there's no cooking sound downstairs yet :(
ARGH, mummy... where are you? TT
ah well, i managed my self control.
no-touchie-computery-in- the-morning-and-afternoon :3
*rolls on the floor*
gonna bring back this big big file to school tomorrow *tears*
it has been staying in my house for like months! ^^
cause i am always too lazy to get my things done
like seriously, i have to change
i seriously have to change
now, when i open my book
i start to get all sleepy and there i go
sleep. on. my. comfy. warm. cozy. (can i stop describing?). bed ^^
ultra fat-hao-ness. i tie my hair into two pony tails XDD
i'm being so random! oooooooh oooh ooh!
it's TV time ! :3
i better.. go.. down.. and.. stick.. my.. butt... on.. the... sofaa
EHEHEHEEHEHEH
byeeeeeeeeeee <3
