Friday, June 24, 2011
一时候, 觉得全部东西都想不开
不想面对着四面墙, 没有原因的离去
外面的世界, 原本熟悉的道路, 一瞬间变得很陌生
面无表情的, 只知道自己一直往前走
陌生人的问候, 不排斥, 却无法回复笑容
叫着自己不断地往前走
眼角湿润, 哭意已有, 却叫着自己坚强
走到了尽头, 累了.
找个最偏僻的地方
坐了下来
一切, 多么的幽静
旁无一人, 唯有风声, 陪伴在左右
自己选择一个人走走
却莫名觉得孤单
人, 是一个很奇怪的动物 :)
坐在一棵大树下, 看见一片片落叶漂浮在湖上
任由风慢慢的把它们吹走
任由自己的前路茫茫, 却无力的飘啊飘
觉得好累,躺在地上, 好想闭上眼睛
却会害怕, 错过了一些不应该错过的东西
为什么, 会怕寂寞?
不明白. 就是不明白...
觉得浑身在颤抖着.....
失去安全感.
拿起手机, 拨起熟悉的电话号码..
"嘟...... 嘟......嘟...."
好几次, 却迟迟没有人接....
慌张.. 迷茫....
毫无方向, 毫无去处.....
没有人出现.... 真的没有...
放弃, 又拨起一个不熟悉的号码
就不知道为什么, 想找个人说话
不习惯, 旁无一人...
"嘟... 嘟.... 喂, 找我什么事?"
不知道, 为什么一句简单的话, 可以那么催泪
"没有啊.. 只是想找人说话..."
寂寞太多, 要求越简单
"吃了没有? 快点去吃啦!"
"不想吃"
"喝水啦!"
"没有水, 只有湖水"
"就喝湖水啦!"
在哭到很伤心时, 却硬要弄别人笑的人..
盖上了电话, 没有力气地躺在草丛
抱着不应该有的希望
迟疑....
心, 仿佛抽干了...
是时候走了.
不知为什么, 没有力气..
花了好久的时间...
一直不断地走...
好像, 永远都走不到尽头
电话响了好几次,
却没有听到..
最后一次, 接到了
传来着急的声音
"你到家了没有?"
"还没有"
"快点回家"
"嗯"
"如果你出事了, 我真的无法原谅我自己......"
我.. 真的会照顾自己.
"到家了"
"嗯, bye"
失去的安全感, 如何得回来?
失去的爱, 如何找回来?
失去了希望, 就不敢奢望
除了麻木, 还是麻木..
心, 抽空了.
填不满...
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
i have been sleeping when i get home
sleeping early like about 10 at night
and sleeping in class...
and i am still damnn tired... =-=
my blog has became my crapping place.
i like to crap here, because i can't talk much in school ==
so i crap.. as i forgot what important thing i want to say.
well, clinton say our next exam is on 1 august ==
WTH, is like so close ==
hate those timetable...
i hate my timetable ==
it's so packed. i need to breathe...
thanks for everything for my birthday...
although i don't have a birthday mood this year. ahaha
maybe because it is crushed because of my continuous emo-ness.
oh well, who cares?
ouch, i just pricked my head with an needle ==
it was behind me and i lied on it.. omgosh..
painn =((
well, luckily is not a knife XDDD
omg, why am i so positive ==
LOL, give me some negative charges and make me neutral.
WEE~ .... i am not high ==
i think i hurt my brain AHAHHAAHA..
fine, i'm really crapping and exaggerating already.
bye.
我最亲爱的, 对是你, 在看着的你, 我永远都不会习惯, 永远.
因为, 你不了解我那种孤独, 半年了, 我还是不习惯, 我还会因为孤独而哭泣,
Sunday, June 12, 2011
ish, shitty day~
feel so clueless. sudden no mood.
is like i'm already prepared for the scoldings already~
so many things undone. like i'm a lost kid standing on the 4 direction road
results? haih.
i cant even imagine how would it look like
i think i will be RED like blood ==
URGH.... i'm sooo in a bad mood right now. (like i always do) ==
feel that i can't finish my unfinished homework already..
HAHAHAHAHA ~
school really can make my life shorter ==
so stressing. makes me moody everytime. when i think about exam and homework.
HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT..
just let me floaat in the calm waters and forget about everything~
can i? can i? can i? can i?
=(((((
知道已经会很烂... 信心? 0%
我能怨什么? 全都自己拿来的.. =(
只好下次加油~ 心情低落~
WILL blog about baby camp when i'm FREE~ =D
well, that is when all those 'photographers' upload my nice nice pictures (i look ugly)
Sunday, June 5, 2011
因为, 我头发很长, 等下进营洗头发很麻烦
然后我的刘海 ==
我已经顶不顺...我真的忍了很久的咯
只是, 没时间去剪 ><
我可是个大忙人啊! 哈哈
我妈妈问我那么忙, 赚多少钱.. LOL?
没钱 XDDDDDDDDD
但是, 我没想到我剪了头发那么大分别
我觉得我变... 到.. 很像小孩子 XDD
超符合宝贝营的 XDDD
办营给小孩子
自己却剪个小孩子头 AHAHAHAHHAHA
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LAME LAME LAME LAME !!!!
hahahaha
原本没打算剪那么短的... ==
我打算剪回去年那个长度.. 可是..
我妈妈讲那个理发师剪太少了 ==
所以叫她剪短一点
(其实, 我懂她喜欢短头发 ==)
她还说以为我要剪短头发
那个理发师还问我舍得剪没有 ==
当然舍得啦, 不然来这里做什么 =======
问得真奇怪
好心, 我不像其他女生
惜头发如宝 XDDD
我只是不喜欢被烦到 ==
然后, 弄到好看就可以了 ^^
这次剪到还蛮好看的 XDDDDD
请看一下的图片~
我的长长发 XDDDD
你看那个刘海 ==
我最讨厌的!!!!!
一直烦着我 == URGH
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TADA!
冬菇头 XDDD
不错哩? HEHEHE
是不是很像小孩子哩?????????
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈!!!
我觉得咯 ==
HAHAHAAH
我将会在网络中消失4天
大家一定要想念我 XDDDDD
我要面对3天的小孩子.. TT
恶梦啊~~~
我最讨厌的 =(
算, 练习我的耐力 XDDDDDD
*深呼吸*
跟你讲, 我到现在都还没有收拾书包 ==
算, 临时抱佛脚吧!!!!!!!
4天过后~
我的黑眼圈就会严重变深
大家, 敬请期待~~~~
拜拜 =DDD
让我FAT HAO 多以下 XDDD
sayornara~
最讨厌一大早
耳朵就要受折磨
现在, 只想一直躲在房里不要出来.
URGH..
昨天看计划书看到头痛+累
就倒在床上了~~~
可惜还没看完
现在, 就要round 2
加油.
Saturday, June 4, 2011
aikz, sometimes i think.. i can't stand my blurness.
it always cause me trouble TT
i am forgetful too.. sometimes when i thought i did something
but in the end, i didn't... WTH ? ==
waking up so early, i am clueless on what to do
so i decided to take a book (which i never understands what it means)
and on facebook (as usual)
and now i decided to crap here as i was bored XD
well, i have to forfill my promise also deeee...
as SHE has update her blog when i told her to XDDD
and i promise her i will update it today
although i am seriously crapping here
heehehehehehehehehe.
i'm bored and hungry....
i have no idea what should i do next?
STALK PPL? hahahahahhaa
stalking is fun ^^
WEEEEEee~
i found out that i'm always hungry when i m blogging
hmm, it must be a pattern XDDDD
garden photos! she look nice but i look horrible :o
of course la, my hair is like a pig sty.
VERY WELL, it has been MONTHS since i go 'zap' my hair
because i am always too busy with xue ji .. LOL.
ahahahaha.. all my sundays that i used to cut my hair XD
are fully packed. WELL, nevermind.
today, no tuition! YAY! =D
so, maybe i'm going to chop down my long hair ^^
i hope my fringe is nice ==
if not i will be ugly during camp T^T
sad scene =(
wish me luck =)
i never knew i will get scolded for caring =( sad
