Saturday, July 31, 2010
i totally forgotten to do the KH notes.. see? see? see? see?
i really need someone to sit beside me...
and tell me to do this and that everyday, so i can be rajin ^^
(neh.. it could never happen)
wee... piano class~~~~~ weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~
i can be so hyper at times!!!!!! hahahahahhaahhahaha
i'm blogging evreyday.. impressive huh? (say yes)
but not for long.. my dad say he is going to rampas my laptop very soon
NOOOOOOOooooooooooo.. due to PMR, i'm gonna wave goodbye to my lovely com =(
so, i'm gonna let this blog be occupy for as long as i'm here =DDDD
wahahahhahahahahahaa... (say till like i'm going somewhere far far away)
i actually asked jie shan what should i wear later =.=
sorry, i'm super lame ~~~~~~ but i really dunno what to wear XDDD
well, the last day of July, gonna miss it =(
the last month i can really relax (i guess)
because, august.. starting to prepare for a 'war' =P
oh and, to val val, your present have to wait because i'm having exam on ur birthday ><
super sorry eh, cause you gave my present early..
and i'm gonna give yours late :x
hope you understand =)
pyramid we built this on the solid rock
it feels just like it is heaven's touch
together at the top~~~
like a pyramid =)
(oh i love this song~)
Friday, July 30, 2010
1st, happy birthday to my gor gor and xin hui =)
next week, is gerak gempur looo.. cemerlang group =D
with cheen n ping^^ YEAH! ahahahahhahahahahaha
i wonder how it will be? i think it will be better than doing nothing in the class
actually, i planned to read the whole form 2 sejarah book
but now, i'm still stuck in bab 5 == i told you before, i'm a bad planner =.=
well well.... i still haven't prepared notes for our group study.. hahaha
and.. i will totally forgot about the whole thing tomorrow, trust me
nevermind, i have a great mouth.. talk my point out XDDD
my brother good lo... he finished his UPSR Trial dy~ it only lasted for 3 days
gosh == i wish i was standard 6 again .. hahahhahahahaa
ok, come back come back to reality, it won't happen =P
move on~ move on~ move on~
woah, my bro singing == unexpected... hahahahahahahahahahahha
ok, this like mainly about him =.= hope he doesn't see what i type XDDD
he sings! omgosh.... but he can't reach high pitch.. hahahahahahahahaahahah
okok, is his turn to play la... sayornara ^^
Thursday, July 29, 2010
books, i'm making myself to do things that i don't like
or maybe you are the one? just because of a word you said.
makes me down again, what do you want from me?
i did my best in everything, you just didn't see it.
why all the good things i done are often unnoticed?
i sacrificed almost everything and you think that i'm only slacking off
now, you make me wanna throw all my books away.
what's the use of studying anyway? when i'm just getting your advice to study hard
when i'm trying to study as hard as i can
my friends didn't even touch their books yet! i'm really early enough.
can't you notice what i've been doing this pass few days?
why don't you understand? =(
我，在这几天来，真的笑了
ahahahaha, today is the last day of koko luu... weeee~~~ i'm just SO happy
but still, i'm gonna be really busy =( awww... tooo bad la..
now i'm actually finding time to play....
and i'm already sacrificing my sleeping time.. which makes me sleepy in school ==
it doesn't matter anyway, i didn't fell asleep in any of the classes
ohohoho... but now, i really can't stop thinking about my following exams
you know why i put a 'S' behind my exam?
because on 11/8 i'm having my yearly piano exam.... aaaahhhhh
i actually think that i'm not really ready =(
what to do? what to do? i'm aiming for distiction =D
2 more weeks.. haih.......... then somemore worse......
trial exam... urgh.. i feel that i can't get rid of activities in my life..
i'm studying and studying and studying.. although i think it is useless anyway
lol, oh today! su vien drawed a pig on my hand... it's nice =)
but it gone away when i bath just now XDDDDDDDD *ahem cheap ink*
okok, jkjk =DDDDDD
and the penceramah today == ish him laaa..
ask us to say 'i love sejarah', lol sry loo.. i don't tell lies.. XPP
so i didn't even open my mouth.... ==
5.15~~~~~ hmm.. i still think that i've forgot to do something
oh well, i'm hungry~ go and make nestum loo.. hahah
sayornara~~~~ =)
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
若看到我用回英语写的话，我才变回正常了
我试着往好的方面想，可是我就是不敢面对别人的目光
为什么我会不知觉地感到害怕？
我只是敢看着我那几位死党而已
唉~冤枉啊~~~~~~~~
这几天都好想睡，不知为什么？
疑心又多一等，怨恨的心情又多了一等
不知还有什么会变多的
我觉得我整个人都变完了啦！又不爱讲话，又装笑
又这个又那个，烦死了！
唯一的好处是我勤劳了很多，因为不说话所以一直找功课做==
更惨的是，我竟然没有声音了
又喊不到，又唱不到歌，该死==
等下还有补习，我可以不去吗？
我好想扑上去我的床然后进入梦乡=)
笑吧！笑吧！我是说真心的那种
我要回我自己，我要回那疯疯癫癫的我！！！！！！！！！！
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
至少，少一点人知道我在讲什么吧？
不知为什么，我变得孤僻
今天几乎每个笑容都装出来的
我，真是名副其实的双面人啊！
爱上了独自的感觉，至少我可以幻想我想要看的画面
很辛苦，真的很辛苦
是要考试的压力吗？还是什么？
我很想唱歌但是没有一首歌可以形容我此刻的心情
钢琴，是唯一可以代替我眼泪的东西
读书，读不进脑，一抛开书本
却被爸爸妈妈说我懒，不注重考试
问题并不在他们身上，而是我的
一时听到，“你还有两个月罢了啊！”
一时又听到，“每天只会讲闷，现在的年轻人是怎样的？”
参加太多活动又被训，没有做东西又被训
但我不怪他们，可是最近每个人都在给我压力
什么要考试了，又要PMR了，有够烦的好不好？
我已经不想理会我剩下多少的时间，尽情去使用它
可是，你们一题到我只剩下两个月
我的身体仿佛被挖空了，一时间不知所措
真的两个月罢了，我应该怎么做？
如果可以选，我宁愿永远睡着，不醒来
至少，我的梦.......是甜的
Monday, July 26, 2010
好的，深呼吸。
其实，我觉得我一点也没有做错，何必盯着我看？
我知道你不喜欢我，那就由得我呀！井水不犯河水就可以了啊！
我并没有犯错，所以我一点也不怕，也不心虚
我有进行我的任务，我只会做好我的本分
就算我以前犯过错，并不代表我是个没有责任感的人
也不代表我会一直一直错下去，算了你误会我，我也没办法
我不是你想象中的坏人好不好？
你看我的眼神充满厌恶，但我却已笑来回应
可是笑容的后面，却充满了寒冷
我可以是双面人，其实我一点也不快乐
找人倾诉，但他们给的回应我不是很想听
原来啊，我是个冷血动物，完全不曾理会别人的感受
怕吗？我一点都不怕，不知何时开始，我再也不怕寂寞
我习惯了一个人的感觉，我不喜欢别人给我无必要的安慰
有时，我恨完全世界，我好想离开这里，离开马来西亚
也许，我爸爸说的东西的确很有道理
与其在这儿伤心倒不如换个新环境，开始新生活？
我是清白的，为什么你不相信？偏对我有偏见？
我真的不怕，我没有做错，所以相信上天是站在我这边
你对我的看法是改变不了，我也不理会
我了解这是人生要经过的考验，不过真的是很累
我恐怕我跌了下去，而站不起来了
我不生气，不伤心，也不开心，只觉得心口好像被一样东西压抑着
快喘不过气来了。
我相信我的能力，我一定要忍住眼泪走到最后
我不想再做那个无助和爱哭的小女孩了！
我要告诉大家，我并没有错，不信的话，我可以证明给你看
证明给你看，我这个看起来不认真而喜欢开玩笑的人
也有我坚强的一面
我要证明给全世界看，尤其是你！
Sunday, July 25, 2010
2nd post of the day ;)
Anugerah kepada manusia yang paling emo - Grace Tan Yee Cheen (gra-si)
haih~ nothing can describe her emo-ness XDDDDDDDDDD
no need to look at some place else, i'm always here ok?
wow, this blogger memang =.= why double spacing one? (fixeddddd)
you're the only one who will not fong my fei gei~
and you're the only one who can stand with my nonsense...
you're the only one who will not say i'm annoying or anything else bad~
you're the only person that makes me wanna go crazy just to make you happy =)
is you laaaaa, yee cheen...
P/S: to some of the person who don't know me, I'M NOT A LESBIAN! ish! ish! ish!
lol, ahem ahem.... what i'm trying to say is.......
i love you =DDDDDD
since you emo, i emo back also la... XDD
外面又下起雨来，凉风带来刺骨的寒冷
我又怎能忍受心如刀割的痛苦呢？
眼泪早已滑落，但是为什么我竟然没有感受？
行人陆陆续续从我身边经过，但没有人肯给我一丝安慰
原来，我是生活在一个那么寒冷的世界
(pretending only la.. XD)
i'm really happy actually, my piano teacher said that i was good =D
that's all i wanted to hear =)
'great' double spacing again == urgh~
Am i yeng?
FIRST OF ALL, thanks to yee cheen and jin yuen for teman-ing me
(see, cheen.. i put you as first weh == and you.. haih~~~~~~)
mostly jin yuen la.. hahahahahahahaha.. teman me to walk
around and around and around the hall.. hehehehehehehhee just to see him
yesterday was ok la, i only shouted when jacky dance and sing.. hahahaha
and one more guy... his voice memang... how to say ar? geng ==
memang geng! i'm lucky that i can still hear now XD
i should learn that someday, to make people deaf =D
i made new friends... (i guess) got one said that cheen is pretty.. ahahahhaha
and i saw Khai Hsuen! hahahahaha.. again~ i kept going out of the hall
to get fresh air.. is like a microwave inside... hahahahhahahahaha...
is better to be outside... i have my buddies maaa... =D
when i walk out of the school, all the VI chinese society ppl say byee to me
khai hsuen ask me not to come again == (such a 'great' person XD)
well, gotta see them at 28/8 ! hope i can be a faccy again la =D
gah! later piano class ><>
(see, cheen.. i put you as first weh == and you.. haih~~~~~~)
mostly jin yuen la.. hahahahahahahaha.. teman me to walk
around and around and around the hall.. hehehehehehehhee just to see him
yesterday was ok la, i only shouted when jacky dance and sing.. hahahaha
and one more guy... his voice memang... how to say ar? geng ==
memang geng! i'm lucky that i can still hear now XD
i should learn that someday, to make people deaf =D
i made new friends... (i guess) got one said that cheen is pretty.. ahahahhaha
and i saw Khai Hsuen! hahahahaha.. again~ i kept going out of the hall
to get fresh air.. is like a microwave inside... hahahahhahahahaha...
is better to be outside... i have my buddies maaa... =D
when i walk out of the school, all the VI chinese society ppl say byee to me
khai hsuen ask me not to come again == (such a 'great' person XD)
well, gotta see them at 28/8 ! hope i can be a faccy again la =D
gah! later piano class ><>
but i practise =) hope my teacher thinks that i'm better than last week
wish me luck! 3 more weeks! byeeee =)
original is always the BEST =D
Friday, July 23, 2010
tak tau nak blog tentang apa.~ but still need to clear the dust loo..
seriously, shu ping is being more like me XDDD (wow, i'm soo perasan)
she's singing like every second and all related to something..ahahah
great, a companion =) ahahahahahahhahaha, she's GREAT
JIN YUEN! YEE CHEEN! 2morow =D
thanks to my gor gor anyway, come from VI to SBS!
wei da T.T wei da T.T ahahahahaha.. (although i'm not the main purpose *ahem*)
he kinda took away my title of being the craziest =.=
urgh... fine~~ another title gone.... hmph!
oh ya, yesterday.. sejarah was really really 'pretty'
i saw vic tor's paper got 32% ahaha.. good luck doing correction XDDDD
but i didn't get really great either.. who told me to forgot to touch my books?
but still my results for not studying was good.. haha (making myself happy)
well, at least over 160 questions.. i only wrong 39 =D
Bab 1 -76%
Bab 2- 83%
Bab 3- 73%
Bab 4- 70 something~
Bab 5-67%
LOL, all form 1, can't blame me right? ahahahhahahahahaha
i didn't touch my books worrr... i didn't worrrrr.... (i just flip at the last minute ==)
then the val val leh.. she didn't EVEN TOUCH her books
she got all A's except for 1 or 2 babs right?
see? how evil is she? she told me she will die with me... now?
i die myself loooo.. the teacher was laughing at me for freaking out XPPPPP
btw, vic tor 'cry' like a sheep XDDDDDDD i still can't stop laughing..~~~
Monday, July 19, 2010
or course i brought my books also la.. == gosh
usually, i dun bring my phone and today i really forgotten to bring my pencil box
and MOST IMPORTANTLY my SPECSSSS!!!! ish
ish ish ish!
luckily val val was there to lend a 'pen' get it? lend a pen.. hahahaha ==
ok, that's not the joke... here's the joke
i was poking her with her pen and this and that...
she said:
HEY! that is my pen! my hand! and everything here is MINE!!!!
i said:
oh, then i'm yours? =D
she: er.. er.. ahahahha what did you say? say it again!! haha
me : =.= no
Sunday, July 18, 2010
jie shan should know ;) ohohoho.. happy happy happy happy happy
i feel like jumping up and down, up and down, up and down
teeeheeheee... you know what? i really cannot pretend to be sad ==
ya, lack of emotions (or am i?) everytime when i'm trying to sing or play the song
although i admit, i'm lazy and everything is not very perfect
but still, because the lack to my emotions so i can't perform a sad song well
ish! how can i make people shed tears when i can't even convince myself ==
well then.. please break my heart =D
then my song will be alive ;D (oh i'm alive~ you set my heart on fire~ohhh~)
ok, even when i'm blogging i can still sing in my heart ==
weird~ drama queen+ weirdo~ and i'm half goat half horse..
you know why? ask my tuition humans la... hahahahahahaha
me: $%%&@@@@
val: har? what word?
wuen hong: squidward
ok, you have to admit wuen hong, you're a BIGGER spongebob fan
than me and val val, clinton also.. he's learning the song from val val XDDDD
Saturday, July 17, 2010
if my father didn't say anything i'm still living my life freely~
i'm soo not prepared.. i can't do anything with my teacher staring at me
she said i was nervous... gosh == yes, i was and was TIRING to hide it
tak berjaya la == how does she know i'm nervous from hearing mere notes..
wow, i need to learn that seriously.. hahahhaahha
i really did try to blend in with the song, changing my emotions while the song changes
the fear, just get to me~
somemore aural time lagi worst, don't know what's wrong with my hearing la
i can't remember all the notes, i can't sing..
but teacher still say ok.. but that really makes me wanna cry
i can't do my best but still teacher still says that i'm ok...
i don't know whether should i be happy or sad
she say my voice is ok but my notes and tempo is not correct
what's the point having a good voice if all those important stuff i can't even get it right?
she kept on giving me chances and said i was good...
or was she only lying to me? =(
don't care don't care don't care don't care don't care don't care
well, STOP CARING
Friday, July 16, 2010
weird.. @@ i forgot what to blog about laaaa.. aaaa.a...aaa
ish.. now she's gone.. again == again == again ==
today was perlantikan pengawas.. nothing special actually..
the only GOOD part was.. we get to sit down.. =) ON THE CHAIR!
what's the point anyway, cause we carry the chairs and arrange them ourselves
gah.. group study later at Yi Von's house..
but actually, i haven't ask my parents about it ==
i kinda forgot =.= same case as jessie... i'm still in my school uniform.
i slept for 2 hours.. i should be studying~~~ or maybe i shouldn't =)
it's gonna rain... i'm gonna sing ridiculous songs again
play broken notes and chords on my piano until the whole house collapsed *ouch*
ok, i'm being SUPER random and SUPER imaginative (tat's nt a word)
it's friday but i'm not really that glad =( hmm wonder why?
now, everybody say i'm a drama queen.. YEAH! got another title =)
hope nobody go and steal it away.. like they all steal my other title ==
1) being most evil (stole) just because i didn't ponteng class ==
2) laugh the most weirdly (stole) the primary HUMANS beside us in tuition stole it
3) being the most sarcastic (stole by yin joe but not stated)
4) being the most annoying person (my brother stole it from me long long ago)
great.. now i'm the drama queen.. ahahahahhahahahahahahaha
hey! clap la! i'm the drama queen... clap~ CLAP!!!! CLAAPPPP!!!!~~~!!!
muahahahahaha..ok i'm still the craziest =.=
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
hahaha, and all my tuitionmates who are borned crazy@@
you all made me smile and laugh *like a horse*
hope the ones who didn't finish their sejarah don't get crazy by the time i see
you all tomorrow =) AHA! who told you all to do so slowly? teeheee
me, val val and yee shing finished it.. long LONG ago~ weee~~~
too bad, you know i guess we always laugh at all those primary kids beside us in tuition
they even critic them for laughing more weirdly than me..
ok, i guess alot of people just took my title away ~~~ =.=
grrrhhh, guess what? i took a 2 hour nap today!! great huh?
after they changed the SSDM list, i'm FREE~~~~~ for this week =.=
what's the difference anyway? LOL, luckily i'm not penolong SSDM
i can't survive that =.= i have my SHARBA as my ketua.. right? right? =)
nyak nyak... i'm back... i'm back... from the sad sad world..
i decided to stand up
rather than let all those people to look down on me
Monday, July 12, 2010
sad?
angry?
i'm everything now..
i tried everything to hide it, i tried laughing, i tried telling jokes
ya, lasted the whole day, but when i locked into my room
my heart felt very painful, i guess i can't really cheat myself can't I?
hmm, i guess i just can't
happy for the people who really have potential to become a prefect, congrats =)
happy that shu ping wasn't sad and she was laughing =)
happy that i found my passion in music again =)
sad because shu ping can't become a prefect, she was really good =(
sad because i lost my partner, shu ping everytime i duty =(
sad because i just felt like crying all of a sudden =(
angry at myself for not trying hard enough to cover everything
angry at those who ... i really don't want to say
angry at myself for being really annoying today, and i know a lot of people will hate me
mostly, i really feel sad for everything i guess
today i didn't even study, wasting my own time =(
就是一件小事，为什么我感觉我已失去了全世界？
睡不着，也不想醒来面对世界的点点滴滴
果然，人生就是一场戏剧，每个扮演着一个角色，做个生命中的过客
一旦戏剧演完了，上一秒还有说有笑的，下一秒却擦肩而过
此刻，脸上在微笑的我，心里却流着泪
我一直在说话，试着不让自己停来，滔滔不绝
不过，扮傻可以掩饰一切吗？为什么我那么的白痴？
骗得了别人，却始终还是骗不了自己
Sunday, July 11, 2010
a RED coloured orange??? =)
i was peeling my 'lunch' then when i open it..
it was RED .. RED i tell you, REDD.. ohohohohohohoho
ok, i found an red orange.. what is the BIG deal? =.=
ahah, i don't know how to answer that.. lol
ahem~~~ hahaha.. i am not emo-ing anymore... cool right?
yer.. i'm weird.... haih~ i don't want to go to school tomorrow..
somemore need to stay back.... gahh
tomorrow i'm officially the penolong marketeers
at least i found something to do everytime i go early to school =D
i feel like vomit-ing now == because of the soup..~~
er.. don't ask @@ is a nightmare...~~~~
gosh, i forgot what should i blog about anymore...
sorry la... short memory @@
Saturday, July 10, 2010
but still, i did. i really can't stop thinking
i don't know what am i emo-ing about anyway..
i can't even answer myself
i'm super sorry 'grandpa'
i can't tell
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
weird huh? this word suddenly appeared in my brain
should i type anything related to the title? erm.. no, no i shouldn't =)
i have nothing to talk about love... i have no idea how i get to write the du hao gan
in school, it took about 45 minutes.. and i only wrote the title =.=
then when i'm locked inside my room, things just popped into my head
hehehe.. i write till very sad.. but i don't feel sad actually..
it is just 1 page @@ ok, i have absolutely nothing to say
i just love to crap when i'm bored,...
maybe i just love him =) but i didn't realise
TARGET: sleep before 10.30
if nobody chat with me... i can sure do this.. hahaahahhahahahaha
byeezzzzz
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
I LOVE MY BIG FAT DOGGIE
big fat doggie
BIG FAT DOGGIE LOVE =D
ok, i'm weird @@ i laughed too much during tuition
our sejarah test is like a bad word competition =.=
well, i'm not one fo them la.. i'm just one of the laughers =)
ok, guess what they say
'ermmm teacher, what's the meaning of FAKta?'
'ya teacher.. FAKta'
' teacher a? what is artiFAK?'
'oh.. artiFAK a? is the bla bla bla bla'
please, i'm not one of them
i'm too cute and cuddly and nice and angel-like to be one of them
ahem.. please... i have used up all my laughing voice..
now i can't SPEAK... neh.. atcually i still can =)
what did i want to say dy a? erm.. erm erm
forgot =D oh well ta~ta~ta~ ta~
dudulu dudu du dulu.. AHA!
FYI, i hate this song =.=
Monday, July 5, 2010
but as i grown up, i starting to realised that i'm facing them one by one
is the circle of life, i used to cry a lot
but now, i starting to hold my tears, asking them not to come out
I used to laugh a lot and lived a care-free livebut now i faked most of them and being tension all the time
Gah... today i was ALMOST sick... ya.. almost..~
luckily shu ping was there for me, she was like my walking stick... LOL
i ALMOST fell down from the stairs.... i'm serious...
shu ping caught me la of course.. if not i won't be here by now =.=
today, everything was like topsy turvy town to me
the world is spinning, i can see alot of images from only one object
shu ping~ my life saver... she made me laugh and woke me up from my dizzy-ness
so i'm back to normal before recess =D
oh yay! but now i'm really sleepy and i stilll have the sejarah test to study ~
i feel like not study for it....~~ but i will die if i don't touch the book
i've made my choiice.. maybe i will regret it..
I'm going to Maxwell this saturday, cause i felt like quiting last saturday lol
but now, i've made my choice, i will take the challenge
same people, same gang, different level of challenge
i will be waiting to challenge you, although i may not be the best
but i'm not the worst either =)
Saturday, July 3, 2010
i'm lazy to talk.. even for abit.. my voice is like the angry voice ~
WATEVER~ today's competition went quite well =)
of course..i lose la.. hahahaha... winning is a miracle..
and miracles are not in my dictionary, i don't really believe in it
since luck is always not on my side and i don't really care~~ =.=
what i can say is, greatest performance ever in my life =)
my voice wasn't shaking, my hand wasn't shaking
and all the faces down there was just like toys =) great, that's what i want
hehe, ya i did well doesn't mean i have to win.. bla~ don't care anyways
i don't feel like going Maxwell anymore, i'm tired.. i can't even think well
maybe i can't suvive there either =.=
walk for miles and miles and miles...luckily we're following chee wei
ohoho, orelse we will be lost in the big big city of KL
the traffic jam is killing me =.= i was so impatient
i felt like wrecking the traffic light that was in my way
and i hate high heels so much ==
i quickly change to my comfortable shoes after my perfomance
ya, my toe is red.. == and painful~~~ stupid high heels
i finally enjoyed it.. i finally enjoyed my moment on stage
i'm happy that i accomplished my one and only dream
standing on stage without fear, thanks =D
Thursday, July 1, 2010
i sing badly at night, i just don't really care much
i'm gonna lose anyway, right?
sometimes i think it is just a waste of time
i rather go to piano class and aim for my distiction~
i have to give up on one thing right? i don't think i can stand much longer
then now, i am staring at my computer screen when i should be staring at my books
i'm a total waste of time, total waste of myself! urgh
i can't help but think that i'm useless actually
i can't do anything, seriously, nothing! nothing! nothing!
why can't i born useful? i feel like a burden to everybody!
why am i thinking like this! i don't really know
goodbye!
